The Phantom of the Opera

February 1st, 2014

Today is saturday and I'm sick/ill... I believe it's a cold. I am really sad that I am sick because today I wanted to go to a concert, a Michael Bublé concert. He's having 2 concerts here in Portugal and I cannot go because I am sick... and also because I didn't get tickets but I could have last minute!

Anyway, I can't go so I have to find something to do. As usual I go on my computer and I watch videos.
This time I decided to watch videos of Nicole Scherzinger and for the past couple of months I have been obsessed with a video of her singing a song from The Phantom of the Opera. In the video she is singing a duet with 4 men and one of them really catches my attention. I search to find who he is. His name is Ramin Karimloo. As I do I go and search more things about this man. I find a video of him and Sierra Boggess singing a duet of "The Phantom of the Opera". I keep on playing the same video over and over and slowly I start falling in love with these two characters. I go on the search box and I type down "Phantom of the Opera". Amongst the many videos of this musical I see there's an almost 3 hour long one, so I figure it must be either a movie or a play. I click on the video, put my headphones on and I just sit there waiting to see what happens.
The characters start talking and the story starts to evolve and as the minutes go by I feel happy as I've found something to watch on this sick/ill day.
Midway through the play - I quickly figured it was a play and not a movie - I feel the need to pause the video as tears are streaming down my face and I am heavily breathing. In am so into the story that I feel everything the characters feel, specially the main one: The Phantom. For some sort of reason that I do not understand, I have connected with The Phantom rather than connecting with the others. I'm usually more of a good-guys-connecter type of girl! But this time it was different. I felt the pain of The Phantom, all of his emotions and his heartbreak!
I need to stop crying and compose myself before watching the other half of this play. I want to see without having tears in my eyes but I also don't want anyone of my family to see me crying. I go on to the room with my laptop and I place it on the bed. I then move myself to the bathroom to wipe down my tears and wash my face. As soon as I feel more composed, I go to the bedroom, I sit on the bed and I place the laptop on my lap. I put on my headphones and I press play!
In about 1 hour and 30 minutes the play finishes. I take off my headphones and I just sit there and contemplate everything I've just seen.
This was my first time seeing a proper musical and it's no surprise to me the amount of love I have for it!

Months have passed and it's now 2015. This amazing musical has stuck to me and with me and it most certainly will for the rest of my life!
When I was a little girl I always knew I wanted to be an actress but I only wanted to do movies or tv and I never considered doing theatre. I felt like it just wasn't for me... After watching "The Phantom of the Opera" for the first time ever, knowing nothing about the story and having felt the way I did, I have been re-considering theatre for the past year. Now I am not shutting out this option, in fact I am very much open to it!
It would be lovely to do movies and tv, I still want it but there's something about musicals that I deeply love! If I could only choose one of these "stages" I'd choose musical theatre. It's a combination of two of the most perfect things in the world: acting and singing!

Watching the musical "The Phantom of the Opera" has completely changes my life and I will for ever love it, adore it, worship it!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

June

Looking back to the past couple of months I feel like I've not been the most productive of people. Half of me knows why and doesn't regret it completely but the other half wishes that I had at least tried to do more.
I find that I am most productive whenever I plan things, make lists, set goals. So for this post that is exactly what I am going to do. I decided that rather than just making a list of my goals for this upcoming month and keep it to myself, I should share it because why not?!

If you'd like to share with me some of your goals for the month of June, feel free to do in the comment section below. But for now, here are my goals:

 1. Start practising Buddhism

 2. Keep improving my health

 3. No skipping uploads or posts

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Respect

Throughout my 19 years of life I have met a lot of people and, at some point in my life, I have considered some of them friends. At the present moment I feel like if I am seeking true happiness I must only surround myself with people with whom I have a relationship that is mainly based on mutual respect.

And throughout my 19 years of life I have come across some very disrespectful people and I have come to realise that that will probably happen till my final days. And I am very much okay with that because I know I have the choice to leave, I am not obligated to be friends with someone who doesn't respect me!

In the past month I have felt like some of the relationships I am in, some of the people who I have surrounded myself with are not respectful towards me. If I was my 16 year old self I would totally let it slip, I'd put it under the rug. But for the past year and a half I have been finding something that I have lost a long time ago. That thing is self-respect and I think it is the most important thing to have when making friends, being in relationships, dating and even just meeting people.
When I was younger - and even in the last few years - I had no respect for myself and because of that I ended up being in relationships where I wasn't happy. 

This wasn't supposed to be an advice post but it turned out to be so my advice is respect yourself first!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Meaning

Life is made out of moments: good and bad, bright and dark, joyful and melancholic. Whether I am going through the brightest of times or the saddest of days, I always like to find things to inspire me.

Quotes are very meaningful to me!

Here are some of my favourites...

Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat.

 F. Scott Fitzgerald

Whatever the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve.

 Napoleon Hill

An obstacle is often a stepping stone.

 Prescott

The mind is everything. What you think, you become.

 Buddha

You can never cross the ocean until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.

 Christopher Columbus

People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing. That's why we recomment it daily.

 Zig Ziglar

The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.

 Lao Tzu

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

 George Bernard Shaw

In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

 Abraham Lincoln

Love,

Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - People

Hello everyone! This is the third and final episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about the people in your life.
I have had a lot of people in my life, some of them negative people whom I've got positive lessons from. (More of that on my video)
Through the years I learned a whole lot about people. I have learnt that people can have a negative effect on you and you may not realise it and other people can make you feel like you're on top of the world. It's not until you have good and positive people in your life that you realise who are/were the bad and negative people.

My advice would be to "delete" the negative people from your life. If you're not sure how to do it check out the video I did on this subject, which will be up tomorrow on my channel.
If you can't quite understand whose having a negative impact on you, once again, be sure to subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for an upcoming video where I will give some real life examples and explain how I figured out who were the people that did not deserve a place in life.

It might not be easy to "delete" people from your life, especially if they are someone who you constantly have to deal with but if they aren't doing you any good, what's the point of having them in your life?! If they are having a negative impact on you or your life, you're not going to be 100% happy when you're with them and you're not going to be yourself.

And that's the end of my series. I hope it was helpful to some of you!
Make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel and don't forget to watch the videos of this series. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

The Age of Adaline

On the 8th of May 2015, a girl called Carolina was feeling very anxious. Not because of coming up school exams or a medical appointment she was extremely nervous to go to. She was just anxious...
She decided to do something about it and so she got ready, left the house and went to wonder about in a shopping center.
When she got there she wondered through a few stores and bought some things to pamper herself. But the anxiety levels were still very high and so she went to the cinema and bought a single ticket.
A movie was probably the one thing that would calm her down. (Being in a dark room full - or empty - of strangers is quite relaxing, some might say!)
When she got there, there was only one woman in the room... but as the minutes went by the room started filling up. When the movie started everyone went silent!

At last the anxiety levels had dropped and Carolina was calm & relaxed!

"The Age of Adaline" is a story about a girl who, just after losing her husband and being left with a 5 year old daughter, suffers a terrible car accident. From that moment on her life changes completely... she stops aging.
At first it's not noticeable but as the years go by and her daughter starts getting older, people start wondering why she looks so youthful!
One day a police officer stops her on the road and notices she looks too young to be 45 years old. And from that moment Adaline starts a new chapter in her life, a chapter where she will not remain in the same place for over 10 years, a chapter where she'll always run away and become a new person.


During the movie Carolina found herself experiencing a lot of mixed emotions and there were times when she wanted to cry because she truly connected with Adaline. There was something about her that Carolina found quite special!

If like Carolina you sometimes find yourself trapped in a world where you feel like no one understands you then go and see this movie. Carolina couldn't find someone to connect with in the real world but she most certainly did it in the imagination world!
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - Exercising

Hello everyone! This is the second episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about exercising.
I've never been one to do sports or to exercise much, I just did what I was required in school and when I was younger I did basketball and gymnastics but I was not good at either of them. I also had swimming lessons for a few years but that was (1) because I needed to learn how to swin and (2) because I have a scoliosis and swimming makes it better.
When I started to care about my weight and my looks I felt like I needed to lose weight because I've always been a little chubby. But it wasn't until recently that I actually started exercising.

My tips on how to evolve and become stronger and more capable of doing certain types of exercises are:

• Start at your own rhythm/pace
• At first do things you feel capable of doing and as the weeks go by you will evolve (e.g. If you never exercised in your life start with a 30min. walk for the first week and then add some exercise to that walk or add more time to it on the second week. Keep adding something as the weeks go by)
• Create a playlist with songs that get you going or exercise with a friend and give each other motivation
• Try new things (easier to people who have access to a gym) - if you can try different types of exercise do it, that will prevent you from getting tired of your exercise routine
• Change your routine every once in a while

Once again, as I've said in my previous post, I am not a professional. These tips are based on my personal experience and they might not work for everyone but I still wanted to share them.

If you would like to see the video I made about my exercising experiences and the results, go over to my channel later this week.

I hope this post was somewhat helpful! Be sure to come back next week for the third and final episode of this series and make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for the videos of this series as well as all my other videos. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

My Makeup Story

Makeup is, in my opinion, one of the best things man kind has ever created!

Is it because I don't feel comfortable in my own bare face and I feel the need to cover it to feel pretty?
No, of course not! I've always felt comfortable bare faced.
Obviously, from time to time, I have those days when I don't like my skin because I have too many spots or my face looks too dry... Everyone has those days, even people who have an apparent flawless skin.

I think makeup is something you use to make you feel better, not because without it you won't feel good enough, but because it is something that enhances all of your beautiful features.

As you know I want to start putting out content that is beauty related and a good way for me to start is to let you know all about my makeup story. So if you'd like to know my story, you will have to go over to my channel soon to watch my video. But here are some key points...

• I first started using makeup at the age of 12
• My first lipstick was given to me on my birthday
• Also on my birthday my aunt got me something big... oohh!
• I made a terrible foundation mistake once
• I only started doing my eyebrows at the age of 18
• My favourite makeup items are lipsticks

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Seize The Moment

There's this movie called "Boyhood" that I've been meaning to watch ever since it came out. I never got around to doing it up until recently and I really regret not watching it sooner but at the same time I feel like I was just meant to watch it at this time of my life. Had I watched it before and the effect it had on me could have been different and less meaningful!

This post is not to talk about the movie itself but the important message I got from it!
At first I started thinking about my life and what I will be doing with it. In the movie there's this part where the main character Mason goes to visit the college/university he's planning on going to. When that happened I started getting really confused, worried and upset. I started thinking about what life really is! Is it just some sort of path you go down where you do all of these things everyone expects you to do? Is life really just about getting an education, finding a husband or a wife, settling down and having kids and having a job that pays the bills? Or is life made of moments, unforgettable experiences, taking risks, finding "your people"?

About 30 minutes later more had happened in the movie and I started to think that I don't have to do what everyone else is doing and that it's okay for me to still be confused. I realised I will be confused till the rest of my days because a life worth living has got to have moments of confusion. And not just confusion but sadness and all the feeling no one likes to feel.

In the last few minutes of the movie Mason is talking to this girl he met in his first day of college/university and she says to him: "You know how everyone's always saying "seize the moment"? I don't know. I kind of think it's the other way around. You know, like the moment seizes us."
This simple thing she said really made me start thinking about the whole "seizing the moment thing". I am still trying to figure out the reason why. All I know is that it made lot of sense to me!
And because of that I'd like to leave these questions for everyone to discuss in the comment section below: (1) Do you think we seize the moment or the moment seizes us? ; (2) Why is it so easy for us to say "seize the moment" but so hard to accomplish?

Also if you've not seen the movie "Boyhood" yet, I really advise you to. Before watching it I had really high expectations about what it was like and it completely surpassed them!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - Eating Habits

Hello everyone! This is the first episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about eating habits.
Through the years my eating habits have changed a bit as I developed an eating disorder called "Compulsive Overeating (COE) - More of that on my video.

all the eating disorders listed on Wikipedia

my eating disorder

If you can't read what's written on the pictures just click here.

It was only recently that I've come to realise that you don't need diets to have healthy and clean eating habits, all you need is to have variety.
My main tip is to follow the food wheel. Alongside that you should:

• Cut your portions
• Eat several times a day
• Don't say no to sweets - you can eat them in moderation
• Try to substitute some foods with similar but healthier options - ex: you can replace white sugar with yellow or brown sugar or stevia sweetener

Also I want to say that I am not an expert, I am not a nutricionist. These tips just come from my personal experience and I wanted to share them as I thought they might be useful.

If you want to see the video I made about my eating habits and how I've changed them, you will find it on my channel soon.

That is all for today. I hope this was helpful, even if just for one of you. Come back next week for the second episode of this series and make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for the videos of this series as well as all my other videos. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Thank you for reading!
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Zoeva Makeup Brushes

I love makeup! I've loved makeup since I first starting watching Youtube videos, which was when I was about 12.
I've started buying makeup at that age but when you're that young you don't really know what you're doing - at least that was the case for me!
As the years went by and I started watching more and more beauty related videos, I started discovering new things, learning new things and falling more in love with makeup.

My passion for makeup has only grown since then and as I love it so much and I'd like to grow my collection, I decided to invest on a little set of brushes that are absolutely perfect.
The Zoeva Rose Golden Luxury Set, brushes of an immense beauty with a touch of "romantic copper" - as described on the Zoeva website.

I've not used them yet as they were only delivered at my house yesterday but I am eager to try them out!
Let me know in the comments below if you've got them and if so, tell me what you think!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes

Hello everyone!
I am currently trying to change my lifestyle into a more healthy, active and positive one because in order to be and feel 100% happy with myself I feel like I need to make some changes.
The 3 areas in my life that particularly need some "cleaning" are Eating Habits, Exercising and The People in my Life.

I've already written a blog post concerning 1 of the subjects but I felt the need to write it again, along with the other 2, as I am indeed changing things in my life.

(In case you want to read my previous blog post on how to change your life just click the following word: exercising.)

There will be videos up on my channel where I'll tell you my experience and my results and I'll talk you through the steps and options you have to change your life. All of those videos will be on a playlist called "Life Changing Changes".

That is all for today. I hope you come here next week to read the 1st episode of this series and also the following 2. Don't forget to check out my channel and subscribe to keep up with the videos of this series, as well as all my other videos. Also feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Thank you for reading!
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Tangle Teezer Review

Tangle Teezers are really popular in the beauty community and so I wanted to get one for myself.
I had heard great things about it so that helped me to make the decision to buy it when I saw the price. I must say that it might have been a little bit expensive but it's something out of this world, my hair has never met such gentle brush.

My hair is quite difficult to deal with because it has mixed textures. Since I can remember it has always been really hard to detangle it because it tends to form tangles whenever it likes.
I never invested in a good hair brush until this past February when I got my hands on a Tangle Teezer. I must say that investing a little bit more in a good brush, even if it seems over-priced, pays off. In two months I have noticed that my hair feels healthier, my curls are coming back, it looks shiny and it's really easy to detangle. Never in a million years had I ever experienced easy detangling but now I have with this precious black object.

Tangle Teezers have my approval certificate!
If like me you are late to the Tangle Teezer hype and you are thinking about buying one, I suggest you do it because it is the best hair brush I've ever had.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Il Divo

In 2006 my father bought a DVD, a concert DVD of one of Il Divo's concerts. Everyone loved that DVD, it had the most beautiful lovely songs. From the day my father brought that DVD into the house it became something that would constantly be playing, even if no one was sitting there to watch it.
I remember loving one special evening - the day my father brought the DVD to the house - spent by the heater, reading my first ever book in english - which was actually an illustrated dictionary - whilst the DVD was playing. That was one of the loveliest evenings I've ever had in my life.
But I remember that I was the one person in the family that was not immediately and obsessively in love with Il Divo's songs but as I grew I fell more and more in love and I truly discovered the beauty of their voices, their songs and the way they perform them.
Now I say 'Thank God for Il Divo!'

Last year Il Divo came to Portugal - not for the first time - and I really wanted to go see them but I didn't go. Now I really regret it and I really hope they come to Portugal again and this time I will not miss the concert even if I have to go all by myself!

There's really no point to this post rather than to express my love for this amazing band! If you're a fan of them too let me know in the comments below.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Plans for the future

In a week it's gonna be 1 month since I finished my German Intensive Course and although I'm quite enjoying the time off, I am starting to feel like I just sit around the house and do nothing but watch tv or youtube videos. And obviously I enjoy doing that but not all the time so I made a decision, a decision to get back to the person I was a few months ago, a person who tried to do something productive with her life. But this time I am sort of going to "upgrade" that person, if you know what I mean...

Before I started my course I was a lot more active on my blog and on my youtube channel than I am now and I really want to go back to being like that. I want to start writting a lot more - and not just on my blog - and I want to start making videos again because doing that makes me feel like I'm being productive and it makes me feel happy!

I have already started posting more in this past month but I am still trying to get back on the posting schedule I've set up for myself. Before the course I always posted 3 times a week, at least and most of the times it was always on the same days every week. This time I want to do that again - so the posting days will be tuesdays, thursdays and saturdays - and I also want to have a consisted time of posting and I am aiming that to be around 4.30pm.

Youtube channelwise I will slowly get back to uploading videos and I definitely want to do more than 1 video per week. At the moment I'm still not sure of how the schedule will be but I will let you know.

And those are the initial plans for my brand. I now have a lot of ideas to think about, a lot of planning to do. I hope you stick around to see what's coming! Wish me luck xx
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

In 5 Years

Recently I've been thinking about a very important question: "Where am I going to be/What will I be doing in 5 years?"

Last week I turned 19 years old so in 5 years time I'm going to be 24. By the age of 24 I hope to have achieved some of my written-all-over-my-notebooks life goals, which include the following topics:

(1) University (2) Travelling (3) Experiences (4) People (5) Health & Happiness

(1) University

Ever since I was a little girl I dreamt of going to University to study things that I am passionate about and hopefully turn them into a career.

I dreamt - and I still do - that I'd meet people who would become my friends for life, that I'd have experiences worth sharing later with my grandkids and all meaningful and important people that would come into my life.

(2) Travelling

I have always loved to travel, to discover new places, to create memories, to meet new people. It is only now, at this age, that it's possible for me to travel like I want, when I want, to where I want and with whom I want.

I've not travelled to a lot of places but hopefully this is the start of that chapter in my life, hopefully the travelling adventures start now!

(3) Experiences

In my eyes experiences don't have to be grand. An experience can be as simple as being completely emerged in joy and happiness when doing something that gives you pleasure and makes you feel passionate, like going on a trip with your best friends or spending an entire day pampering yourself.

For me it can be going to a concert whether I know the artist or not, having a picknick on the beach with friends, embracing a sunny day.

The simplest of things in life are the ones you are able to enjoy everyday so enjoy them as much as you can because they're the ones you're going to remember loving!

(4) People
I am a people lover! I love to get to know different people with different interests, passions, lives. At 24 years of age I'd love to be surrounded by friends that I've got to know throughout my life, with whom I've had experiences that I'll remember all my life. I'd love to have helped at least some people achieve something they want, conquer a fear. I'd love to inspire people in some way.
I love people and I want many of them in my life!

(5) Health & Happiness
Every single day I conquer a fear or obstacle, I achieve something, I take another step towards my happiness. At 24 years of age I hope that I am still in this process of growing as a person, this process where I take small but meaningful steps everyday.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Getting Inspiration

As a blogger, youtuber and in general a creative person I have to constantly be inspired and find topics to talk about in my Blog and Channel. And sometimes it's not all that easy to find inspiration every single day but I have my own ways, which I am about to share with you.

(1) Random things
Sometimes I am walking in the streets or doing something at my house and I see or hear something ordinary. That something makes me think of something else and a process starts in my mind which leads to an inspiring idea for a post or a video.

(2) Boosts of inspiration at night time
It's at night time that my creativity really flows because my brain is starting to get calmer and so it functionates better. And because of that I constantly have boosts of creativity at late hours which is probably not the best thing but I seem to make it work.

(3) The Universe's help
Sometimes when I don't have any sort of inspiration the Universe gives me a little help. For example a couple of nights ago I had a really strange dream that I ended up remembering once I woke up and that gave me an idea for me to write a story and also the an idea for a blogpost, in fact this one.

So that's my secret on how I get inspiration. My tip for anyone who wants to feel a little bit more inspired is to stop thinking so hard about things and eventually the ideas will pop-up in your head. If you find that they are stupid, don't put them aside right away because they might be better than you thought!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Divergent Series: Insurgent

About this time last year I was about to finish reading the book "Insurgent". I had read the first book of the series and I started reading the last book a few days later. When I finished reading the whole series I was really sad not because of how the story ended but because it ended. I wanted to keep on reading... I fell completely in love with the characters, the story, the meaning of it all.

It was also this time last year that the first movie adaptation of the book series premiered. I went to the movies to watch it and I left feeling completely satisfied: the movie had made justice to the book. I left feeling good but also feeling an urge to watch the second movie.
One year later here we are, the second movie of the series has premiered and I went to watch it a couple of days ago and I have a lot to say about it!

Visually it is a great movie, very well made. In terms of the story line everything makes perfect sence. But one thing that I didn't like all that much was the fact that the story was a little bit different from the one in the book and a lot of important details were kept from us.
People tend to say that if you have read a book series that you shouldn't watch the movies because you might feel disappointed. And this time I totally understand why they say that, this time I left the theatre feeling a little bit disappointed.
It's not that big of a deal because (1) the movies are an adaptation of the books so they don't have to be really precise with all the details and (2) the movie was still really good. But still I feel a little bit sad that the producer and director of the movie didn't make justice to the original story line present in the book.
I don't know what's going to happen on the next movie but I am really urging to see it, even though I wasn't amazed by this one. (Note: This is just my opinion, don't come jumping on me please!)

Comment down below what did you think about the movie "Insurgent" whether you have read the book or not. Also tell me what types of posts you'd like to read in the future, I am open to suggestions because I am in a changing process of my "Carolina Rosalie brand".

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Singer/Songwriter

When I was little I was constantly dreaming about doing some creative with my life and that dream has persisted till now and it will accompany me till the rest of my days. I always knew I wanted to be an actress, although at the beginning of my life - when I was 2 and 3 years old - I wanted to work in the fashion industry. It was in my 4th year of life that I realised that acting was my one and true passion... or so I thought!

Music was always a huge part of my life but I only realised the dimension of its importance when I was 13 years old. I started taking guitar lessons and a few months later I took part in my school's music club where I started discovering that I could sing. Me and one of my best friends at the time, who was also in the music club of our school, were the back-up girls because we did not have any singing experience, we were only starting to get to know our voices and starting to learn techniques.

Eventually I stopped having guitar lessons and for about a year, after I finished 9th grade, I stopped singing. But I turned back to music when I went through a rough time in my life, just after I had turned 16 years old. At that period of my life music was an escape and a way for me to express my feelings. I started singing again which really upset my mum and sister because I'd sing 24/7 if I could. This was a complete new experience for me: yeah, music had been important whilst growing up but never that important... Eventually my mum and sister accepted that I was turning into a "constant singer" and after a few months it was an absolutely normal thing that happened in my life and their lives. 

Nowadays music is an escape, a way for me to express myself and a hobby. And I want to take steps to better myself as a singer, as a songer writer, I want to take steps to become a guitar player, a piano player and a music composer. And my way of doing that is to have music lessons again.

I totally see myself pursuing this passion and turning it into a career and so this time I really want to take it serious. 

There's something about music that makes me feel this mix of emotions, music makes me feel alive. When I sing it's like my problems disappear!

And there's something about the singer-songwriter type of artist that just really attracts me. I love to write, I love to sing and I feel a lot safer and less nervous when I have a musical instrument with me, so to combine these 3 things would be perfect and I find this perfect combination in the singer-songwriter artist!

Love,

Carolina Rosalie ♥

Don't Say No To Life

Today I wanted to write about a special topic which is very close to my heart and it makes me feel quite emotional. It's a mix of the following things: anxiety, depression, bullying, being let down, body image issues, being under or over weight, not feeling good enough, eating disorders, feeling left out.
All of these "things" either combined together or just by themselves are obstacles to one thing that is very important for me, which is enjoying life and all the things that come with it, good and bad.

This topic is something I think it's massively important to talk about because like me - I often experience some of these obstacles - there's a lot of people who suffer from anxiety or depression, a lot of people who don't feel good about themselves, a lot of people who feel like they don't belong somewhere...
This used to be a topic I didn't feel comfortable to discuss with other people and sometimes I still feel a little bit embarassed to share some of these things with friends or family but it's important to talk and to ask for help!

If you don't know already I have been dealing with weight and body confidence issues from a very young age, I have social anxiety, I've experienced depression and I had an eating disorder, I was made fun and picked on when I was younger, I have been let down, I was left out several times and I felt like it was my fault, I felt guilty.
So I am not new to these "subjects", I really know what I am talking about, in the means of knowing how it feels and what it takes to make some of these go away or just make them less horrific.
Keep in mind that I am no expert, this is coming all from personal experiences.
Also if you would like to know, on full detail, my story concerning each of these topics just click on the following words and they will take you to the post concerning a certain subject:

Anxiety | Depression | Body Confidence & Being Overweight | Eating Disorders | Confidence & Self-Esteem | Motivation

Now that the introduction is over (long, I know...) you will have to go to my channel to know what I did and do to be happier and feel better even when some of the "obstacles", which I face on the daily bases, get to me - link to it on the "Youtube Tab" above.
I really hope you feel a little better and more inspired once you finish watching the video!!!

Thanks for reading. I will talk to you in a few days :)
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥