Respect

Throughout my 19 years of life I have met a lot of people and, at some point in my life, I have considered some of them friends. At the present moment I feel like if I am seeking true happiness I must only surround myself with people with whom I have a relationship that is mainly based on mutual respect.

And throughout my 19 years of life I have come across some very disrespectful people and I have come to realise that that will probably happen till my final days. And I am very much okay with that because I know I have the choice to leave, I am not obligated to be friends with someone who doesn't respect me!

In the past month I have felt like some of the relationships I am in, some of the people who I have surrounded myself with are not respectful towards me. If I was my 16 year old self I would totally let it slip, I'd put it under the rug. But for the past year and a half I have been finding something that I have lost a long time ago. That thing is self-respect and I think it is the most important thing to have when making friends, being in relationships, dating and even just meeting people.
When I was younger - and even in the last few years - I had no respect for myself and because of that I ended up being in relationships where I wasn't happy. 

This wasn't supposed to be an advice post but it turned out to be so my advice is respect yourself first!

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - People

Hello everyone! This is the third and final episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about the people in your life.
I have had a lot of people in my life, some of them negative people whom I've got positive lessons from. (More of that on my video)
Through the years I learned a whole lot about people. I have learnt that people can have a negative effect on you and you may not realise it and other people can make you feel like you're on top of the world. It's not until you have good and positive people in your life that you realise who are/were the bad and negative people.

My advice would be to "delete" the negative people from your life. If you're not sure how to do it check out the video I did on this subject, which will be up tomorrow on my channel.
If you can't quite understand whose having a negative impact on you, once again, be sure to subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for an upcoming video where I will give some real life examples and explain how I figured out who were the people that did not deserve a place in life.

It might not be easy to "delete" people from your life, especially if they are someone who you constantly have to deal with but if they aren't doing you any good, what's the point of having them in your life?! If they are having a negative impact on you or your life, you're not going to be 100% happy when you're with them and you're not going to be yourself.

And that's the end of my series. I hope it was helpful to some of you!
Make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel and don't forget to watch the videos of this series. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - Exercising

Hello everyone! This is the second episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about exercising.
I've never been one to do sports or to exercise much, I just did what I was required in school and when I was younger I did basketball and gymnastics but I was not good at either of them. I also had swimming lessons for a few years but that was (1) because I needed to learn how to swin and (2) because I have a scoliosis and swimming makes it better.
When I started to care about my weight and my looks I felt like I needed to lose weight because I've always been a little chubby. But it wasn't until recently that I actually started exercising.

My tips on how to evolve and become stronger and more capable of doing certain types of exercises are:

• Start at your own rhythm/pace
• At first do things you feel capable of doing and as the weeks go by you will evolve (e.g. If you never exercised in your life start with a 30min. walk for the first week and then add some exercise to that walk or add more time to it on the second week. Keep adding something as the weeks go by)
• Create a playlist with songs that get you going or exercise with a friend and give each other motivation
• Try new things (easier to people who have access to a gym) - if you can try different types of exercise do it, that will prevent you from getting tired of your exercise routine
• Change your routine every once in a while

Once again, as I've said in my previous post, I am not a professional. These tips are based on my personal experience and they might not work for everyone but I still wanted to share them.

If you would like to see the video I made about my exercising experiences and the results, go over to my channel later this week.

I hope this post was somewhat helpful! Be sure to come back next week for the third and final episode of this series and make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for the videos of this series as well as all my other videos. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes - Eating Habits

Hello everyone! This is the first episode of my series "Life Changing Changes". Today's post is about eating habits.
Through the years my eating habits have changed a bit as I developed an eating disorder called "Compulsive Overeating (COE) - More of that on my video.

all the eating disorders listed on Wikipedia

my eating disorder

If you can't read what's written on the pictures just click here.

It was only recently that I've come to realise that you don't need diets to have healthy and clean eating habits, all you need is to have variety.
My main tip is to follow the food wheel. Alongside that you should:

• Cut your portions
• Eat several times a day
• Don't say no to sweets - you can eat them in moderation
• Try to substitute some foods with similar but healthier options - ex: you can replace white sugar with yellow or brown sugar or stevia sweetener

Also I want to say that I am not an expert, I am not a nutricionist. These tips just come from my personal experience and I wanted to share them as I thought they might be useful.

If you want to see the video I made about my eating habits and how I've changed them, you will find it on my channel soon.

That is all for today. I hope this was helpful, even if just for one of you. Come back next week for the second episode of this series and make sure you are subscribed to my Youtube channel to be notified for the videos of this series as well as all my other videos. Feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Thank you for reading!
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Life Changing Changes

Hello everyone!
I am currently trying to change my lifestyle into a more healthy, active and positive one because in order to be and feel 100% happy with myself I feel like I need to make some changes.
The 3 areas in my life that particularly need some "cleaning" are Eating Habits, Exercising and The People in my Life.

I've already written a blog post concerning 1 of the subjects but I felt the need to write it again, along with the other 2, as I am indeed changing things in my life.

(In case you want to read my previous blog post on how to change your life just click the following word: exercising.)

There will be videos up on my channel where I'll tell you my experience and my results and I'll talk you through the steps and options you have to change your life. All of those videos will be on a playlist called "Life Changing Changes".

That is all for today. I hope you come here next week to read the 1st episode of this series and also the following 2. Don't forget to check out my channel and subscribe to keep up with the videos of this series, as well as all my other videos. Also feel free to check out all my social media and don't forget to follow me on Bloglovin'.

Thank you for reading!
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Don't Say No To Life

Today I wanted to write about a special topic which is very close to my heart and it makes me feel quite emotional. It's a mix of the following things: anxiety, depression, bullying, being let down, body image issues, being under or over weight, not feeling good enough, eating disorders, feeling left out.
All of these "things" either combined together or just by themselves are obstacles to one thing that is very important for me, which is enjoying life and all the things that come with it, good and bad.

This topic is something I think it's massively important to talk about because like me - I often experience some of these obstacles - there's a lot of people who suffer from anxiety or depression, a lot of people who don't feel good about themselves, a lot of people who feel like they don't belong somewhere...
This used to be a topic I didn't feel comfortable to discuss with other people and sometimes I still feel a little bit embarassed to share some of these things with friends or family but it's important to talk and to ask for help!

If you don't know already I have been dealing with weight and body confidence issues from a very young age, I have social anxiety, I've experienced depression and I had an eating disorder, I was made fun and picked on when I was younger, I have been let down, I was left out several times and I felt like it was my fault, I felt guilty.
So I am not new to these "subjects", I really know what I am talking about, in the means of knowing how it feels and what it takes to make some of these go away or just make them less horrific.
Keep in mind that I am no expert, this is coming all from personal experiences.
Also if you would like to know, on full detail, my story concerning each of these topics just click on the following words and they will take you to the post concerning a certain subject:

Anxiety | Depression | Body Confidence & Being Overweight | Eating Disorders | Confidence & Self-Esteem | Motivation

Now that the introduction is over (long, I know...) you will have to go to my channel to know what I did and do to be happier and feel better even when some of the "obstacles", which I face on the daily bases, get to me - link to it on the "Youtube Tab" above.
I really hope you feel a little better and more inspired once you finish watching the video!!!

Thanks for reading. I will talk to you in a few days :)
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Detoxing My Life

Recent events in my life have made me realise that there's a lot of things I want to change about my habits, my relationships, my routines... myself basically.
In the last few months I experienced both good and bad things and I know for a fact that the bad things I experienced are not my fault... but I can remove myself from those situations so that I don't have to experience them. I feel like I had to experience certain things so that from now on I know what is good for me and what is not worth my time nor my effort.

If you follow me on Twitter you may have noticed that I sometimes tweet about "detoxing my life", choosing the right people to have in my life, choosing to be healthy... I definitely want to do that, in fact it is one of my goals for 2015 but also for the rest of my life... But life doesn't always go the way we want it to go and sometimes people have to do certain things that they might not want to do in order for them to change their lives and live the way they want to. That is exactly what is happening to me and although some of the things I have to do are quite hard, I know that once I do them it will be 10 times easier to move foward and grow into the person I want to become.

One week from now I am going to turn 19 and I dreamt that at that age I'd be a lot different from what I am today. I dreamt that I'd be experiencing different things, I dreamt that I'd have relationships that would last me a lifetime. Unfortunately my life is, in some aspects, the opposite of what I dreamt it would be. But the thing is, I don't feel sorry for myself because I know that that won't change anything. The only way things are going to change is if I take measures, do things. I know this from experiencing the whole "feeling sorry for myself & I wish my life was a movie" thing.
But about a year ago I decided that I wasn't going to be like that anymore and so I changed my thoughts, I opened up my mind and I tried to do things... and if I failed at doing them I'd try different things. The whole point that I am trying to talk about here is that your mind and the way you think is the key to success!

But that is not enough on it's own and that is precisely what this post is about. - I am aware that this was a huge introduction but I had to give you some back up story for you to understand what I'm about to say better.
If, like me, you decided that you don't want to keep on wasting your time & your effort on leading a life that is not fullfiling you the way you want it to fullfil you than you have to take measures!

One of the things I feel like it's best to do is to surround yourself with positivity. You, yourself, have to try and look at the life with a positive perspective - this helps a lot! And you must also surround yourself with people who have a positive effect/impact on you and who support & appreciate you. This way you have a "safe place" to come back to if you ever find yourself feeling lost, needing some comfort and some advice.
If surrounding yourself with positive people means you have to "delete" some people from your life than I think you should do it, even if it is hard. Be aware that you don't have to be extreme! You can still be with people who may not be the most positive ones, you just have to be sure that they're not going to influence you in a negative way.
Sometimes we might have in our families people who are a bit negative towards us... To delete those people from your life would be a bit too extreme but if you don't feel appreciated or comfortable around them then something must be wrong, so try to talk to them and explain what you are feeling that is taking place and if they understand you - or try to do it - then you will probably see some results. But this might not happen - and I know it would be ideal if it did.
_____________________________________________________________________________________________ In terms of routines and habits the first thing I think it is best for you to do is to ask for help because sometimes it is quite hard to change all on your own. Talk to one of your friends or sibilings, cousins and explain what you want to do from now own and ask if they'd be interest in joining you. For example if you want to start working out, just get a bit of exercise in your life and you don't want to do it alone ask your brother or sister, best friend, cousin or one of your parents even.
Last year I wanted to start working out but I did not want to do it all on my own because I felt uncomfortable to out into the streets by myself, so I asked my sister to join me and for a few months we'd go together. And now I am prefecty comfortable about going to work out on my own, I don't need people to come with me.

The second thing that I feel like it's important for you to do is to create some sort of schedule and try to stick with it for a whole month. They say that is takes 21 days for you to get used to something new so if you do it for a whole month it will be even better!
This schedule can be an exercising schedule, an eating schedule, a working/studying schedule or any other schedule you'd like it to be. Please remember that your schedule has to be realizable, don't try and push yourself to do something that you know you won't be able to do. It's important that you start slow and as time goes by you gradually start changing your schedule or adding "tasks" in your routine.

The third and final thing I think it's important for you to do is not to put a lot of pressure on yourself. It's important that you start changing your habits and routines if you want to change your life and the way you feel about it, but if something doesn't work out at the beggining it's okay. It takes time to find what suits you and your life best. You are unlikely to figure everything out the first time you try to do something new and that is completely fine!
I know I got really frustrated when I was trying to change something about me or my life and it didn't work out. Later on - a few years later on - I found that these types of processes, these types of changes take time. And I am still trying to figure a lot of things out even though I started this process about 5 or 6 years ago. Sometimes I still feel frustrated about how long this is taking but when I find myself feeling like that I take a second to think about everything I've experienced and how far I've come.

So these are my tips of advice, all coming from personal experiences. They might not work for everyone but I think they won't harm anyone who tries them out. Good luck! Make sure you let me know the consequences of my tips on your life.
Love,
Carolina Rosalie ♥

Love Yourself

Those people who say they hate people they don't even know, let me tell you that is not right! Those people probably haven't done a single thing to you so you shouldn't be hating on them.
From watching some people of my surrondings I came to realise that this rage is nothing but jealousy. People don't feel comfortable in their own skin so they take it out on others.

I have experienced this myself. A few people have hated on me because they didn't feel happy in their own skins. I never gave them back the negativity they gave me but it obviously made me feel sad and sometimes angry.

If you do this to other people they might not feel angry because most of the times you don't say things to their face but they will feel sad if they find you've been saying bad things about them.

This post will probably get hate from some people - glad I ain't that popular (yet!) - but I still want to do it because I feel like the people that hate on others may - or may not - find this either helpful or at least interesting, as well as people that, like me, try not to hate on others.

Let's all picture Demi Lovato. She deals with a lot of hate for being larger than what people consider a beautiful size. Now let's picture Taylor Swift. She also deals with a lot of hate because she is "too skinny".
For me both Demi and Taylor are beautiful as they are. There's no such thing as a perfect size, all sizes are beautiful.
The people that hate on D & T for being a certain size are either:

• Jealous of them because they feel beautiful and confident as they are
• They - the haters - just have nothing to do with their lives and they sit all day in front of their computers and they hate on everyone

Now let's say you don't like Perrie Edwards and you think she's fake because she either wears a lot of makeup or because she's just with Zayn for fame. I am a fan of her, obsessed about pretty much anything she does as she's one of my biggest inspirations and I do not see anything fake about her looks or her personality. She is absolutely stunning and from what I know and from what she shows us of her relationship with Zayn, she's absolutely in love with him as he is with her! *I'm fangirling a bit* That hate some people have for her is because they're jealous of her looks, her talent, her personality and her fiancé! Nothing but that...

Basically the point I want to make here is: You do not have to hate on other people that have done nothing wrong just because you feel bad about yourself!
If you dislike a certain trait you have try to accept it or try to find something you like about yourself and concentrate on that and slowly find ways to accept all your features.
I will make a video with tips on how to be more positive and another video on my ways of accepting my body, my traits, everything about me. Both of those videos will be up soon, hopefully, so make sure you're subscribed to my channel to see them as soon as they're up. Also make sure to follow me on Twitter and check out all my other social media - links on the tabs at the top of the blog :)

Thanks so much for reading. Come back in a few days for a brand new blog post! Until then...
Love,
Carolina Rosalie

Letting Go

Hello everyone! Today I thought I'd share my thoughts on this phrase "One of the happiest moments in  life is when you find the courage to let go of what you can't change".

Letting go of what you like/love is never easy and most of the times you regret doing it. But there is always a bright side, a positive thing that comes into your life when you let go of something that doesn't need to be a part of your life anymore.

For example, one of the most common things people want to let go of is a sad or bad past. Most people don't have enough strength to do that whenever they want but eventually they'll have to do it if they want to start having a better and brighter life. 

And for me (and the entire human species and animals and rocks...) one of the things you can't change is the past. You might as well let go of it and start living the life you've imagined. 

My case is actually very similar to the example I just gave. For years and years I said to myself "You need to change Carolina, you need to let go of the past and start living the way you want to..." but as I was just a kid, still am, I couldn't do much about it. I needed help to change several things I was doing wrong, bad habits. 

But as the years went by I started to see that I don't have to change everything at once. I'll eventually get to where I want if I take little steps towards that way.

So here I am... still a kid... changing my habits, the way I see life and I'm becoming a better, happier and healthier person. 

So the main thing I'm trying to say here is: it does take a lot of courage to let go of things but if you do it better things might come your way. 

I hope you enjoyed this very random blog post. Feel free to follow me on Bloglovin' or any other social media sites, all linked on the side bar. I'll talk to you next week :)

Love,

Carolina Rosalie <3

That's Just Who I Am

Hello beauties, today I have for you an inspirational post. 
So one day I was on Tumblr and I came across this very cool blog called “and that’s just who i am” and as I was scrolling down and reblogging stuff from there I thought that maybe I should take some inspiration from this blog to create something. The first idea that I had was a song (at least the lyrics), which I’m still gonna do but it’s not going to be easy and it will take time to be finished. So I decided to make something a little less time consuming and easier to do aka this post. So let’s start!!

I feel left out easily
If you feel left out make others notice that you’re there, don’t let them ignore you cuz they wouldn’t like if you’d ignore them.

I’m afraid
It’s okay to be afraid but don’t let the fear get the best of you, it must not be bigger than what you want.

I want a walk-in closet (with loads of clothes)
You’re not being materialistic if you want a big closet, it just proves that you love to feel pretty and good about yourself.

One little note when buying clothes and accessories:
Dress for yourself, not for others! - Jesy Nelson

I’m myself when I’m with my friends

I’m only me when I’m surronded by people that make me feel good about myself.
If you feel that you’re not you around certain people either you have to know them a little bit better and let them know things about yourself or they’re not your true friends.
In the first case you should talk to them and make them see that you don’t feel comfortable doing things around them, maybe they’ll help you get past that problem; In the second case just get rid of that bad people: they don’t realise you’re important and worthy, they’re not worthy of your time.

I’m unsure about everything
Being unsure is not a bad thing cuz if you knew what was ahead life would not be funny and joyful.

I get hurt easily
I get hurt with little stupid comments that sometimes a friend or a family member does. If it happens to you talk to whoever hurt you and try to solve that.

I wish people would see through my tough façade
This tends to happen when you’re not feeling happy. The best thing you can do is talk to someone and ask for help to get rid of that façade. Once you’re over with that (it can/might take some time) you’ll not feel the need to put on a façade in front of others.

I don’t accept myself
It is hard to fully accept everything about you but there are ways to do that, you just have to look on the bright side of things. For example: If you don’t like your eyes maybe try to start wearing makeup to make them pretty. Soon you’ll accept them.

I can’t wait to find myself
Most people go a long way till they find themselves but it will eventually happen. Don’t try to rush things, everything happens in the right time.

I think too much
It can be good but it also can be bad. If thinking a lot it’s making you feel down or upset try to think about good things or memories and keep yourself busy to get your mind out of those bad things. Going for a walk or going to the gym is usually a good option.

I want new friends
If you feel that the friends you currently have are not truly your friends talk to them, explain your reasons and move away. Find people that are more like you and try to be their friend, just be yourself and you'll be fine.

I try too hard to fit in
Don’t try to fit in because you will not be yourself and you will not show your “true colors”. Instead go on, gain some courage and talk to other people, maybe this time you won’t have to fit in.

I’m multiracial
Don’t be ashamed to be multiracial. I myself am multiracial and I actually like it, it allows you to know about different cultures and people.
For example: I’m indian, mozambican and portuguese. I’ve ate completely different types of food and my apperance is quite exotic, which people find interesting (a great way to make friends also).

I’m staying strong
Whatever happened or is happening or will happen in your life that will make you feel really bad and poorly, just remember that you’re not alone, there are a lot of people in the world going through the same thing as you and it will get better, you just have to believe it. Stay Strong for yourself and for others, you will be a better and stronger person after this dark period.

I’m nice to everyone
Remember to be nice to everyone.
Someone who is feeling bad and sad will brighten up a little bit if someone is nice to them.
Someone who’s already happy will be happier if they receive a huge smile or a nice complimment.

I care way too much about someone who couldn’t care less
If this is happening with you just forget that person, move on, they’re not worth the hours you spend crying or thinking about them.

I want to stop bullying
Bullying is not a funny thing, it’s very serious. If you’re being bullied or you know someone who’s being bullied ask for help.
Bullying can really destroy someone confidence and self-esteem and it takes years to get them back.
If you’re someone who treats others bad to feel good about yourself please quit doing that, it’s not good for you and it’s not good for your “victims”. Instead ask for help or find another way to feel confident.

I spend too much time indoors
Spending too much time indoors is not healthy at all. You need to turn off your computer and go outside to experience the good things this life has to offer.
There’s a video I’d like to recommend to whoever spends a lot of time indoors. If you’re afraid about what’s gonna happen outside your room, here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG-WbtoAf2k. 
I’m not going to let anyone make me believe I’m not worth it
You are totally worth it, don’t ever let anyone say that you’re not. You worth as much as everyone else and if someone says you don’t just ignore that person cuz he or she is talking absolute crap.

I’m not comfortable in my own skin
Feeling good in your own skin is not always easy to accomplish but it’s possible, you just have to give yourself some time and take good care of your body and your mind.

I’m not stereotypical
Good, that’s good. Don’t be stereotypical, be different. Original and different from everyone else is the best thing you can be. But at the same time don’t worry if physically you’re similar to others girls or boys, because emotionally and the way you think, your values are different from everyone else. Everyone’s perfect in their own way.

I still watch Disney Channel
Anyone that watches Disney or any other channel like that is cool in my eyes cuz I like people to be adult and serious when it’s required but most times I, myself like to be as silly and childish as I can be. Don’t ever let your inner kid die, ever (that’s what my mum says to me, haha).

I just want to be able to be myself without being judged for it
If people judge you because you do something or you are different from what they expect, let me tell you that you are with the wrong people. No one should judge your ways, your looks or your personality.
Just be yourself and the right people will come into your life.

I can’t remember the last time I smiled for real
That’s not very good because smiling and laughing are two of the best things in the world and are very healthy things to do. Just try to fix or solve, as quick as possible, any problems that you might have in your life and do things that will boost your hapinness, that way you’ll smile and laugh much more and it will be real.

I’m a good friend
Always be a good friend, it is very important to be a nice and caring friend not only because if you need something your friends will help you and support you in a more active way if you’ve been nice to them but also because being nice and helping others and caring are things you should do everyday. Why should we need na purpose to do that?

My problems follow me everywhere
Don’t let your problems follow you everywhere, they can’t be bigger than anything else. Of course there should be a time when you think about them but you are the one who chooses the time, not your problems. Clear your mind with other things troughout the day.

I don’t want to let anyone know that I’m broken
It’s obvious no one wants to be exposed when they are so fragile and emotionally broken but there will be a time when you have to do that, otherwise your problems are just gonna grow till you can’t take them no more. Tell someone you really do trust what’s happening and finish that pain before it finishes you.

I’m scared of the world
The world can be a scary place but the real “monster” is your fear, the fear that you carry everyday with you. That fear isn’t allowing you to live properly and fully. You just need to focuse on what you want to do, take the fear and put it in a little box and trow it in the river. Don't let it stop you!
Well this are just a few of the quotes I took from the site. There's tones of them and I still have enough to do another post or maybe two. 
Let me know if you want another post like this! And if you're interested this is the Tumblr blog I took inspiration from: http://andthatswhoiam.tumblr.com/

Talk to you next week, thanks for reading. Love you loads! Bye!!

Confidence/Success/Positivity

Hey, this post is about somethings that I think are very important to succeed in life. But I just want to say I'm not an expert, I'm just 17 years old and I wanted to share my point of view :)

One of this days I was talking with my mum about going to college/university: I'd like to have that experience but at the same time I want to follow my dreams. I don't know how I'm going to do that but I sure will not give up on what I want to do, what really makes me happy to go study something that probably won't make me as happy...

But all this introduction talk is something we all know and hear everyday. The main thing I'm trying to tell, the important message of this post is something that I try to do often: being positve about things!!!

It can be an ordinary daily situation or a big decision, it doesn't matter...

I know a lot of people who don't believe that they are capable to reach their goals and be good at it. And as I have kind of a confident personality I tell them that the better way to make something great happen is to first of all believe 100% in themselves and in what they're doing.

(A little note: I'm not in any way saying that only confident people can reach their goals and make amazing things happen, not at all. Everyone can do anything they want and confidence is a thing you build.)

Confidence + Hard Work + Being Yourself + Being Humble = Success 

But success doesn't come easy and sometimes takes a lot of time to reach which is why people should not give up, keep trying harder and harder. That way you will improve and have new experiences, meet new people, ...

That's basically it. I will post more things related to this and non-related because I have tons of ideas. I hope this was in some way helpful, if not I still enjoyed writing it and I hope you liked reading it. I'll talk to you on my next post, see ya!! :)

Taking risks

Hey there!! This post is going to be about something that happend to me last summer.

Because of 3 friends (Madalena, Maggie and Anete) I started to like One Direction!! First I fell in love with some of their songs but then I fell in love with their personalities because I saw some compilations of their Funny Moments!! (and by some I mean loads...)

So then I searched because I wanted to know their story, their full names, birthdates, etc etc etc. And one thing I wanted to know as well was if they were single or not... and I found out that Liam, Louis and Zayn were not single #merp (btw I'm aware of their current dating situations)

So then I searched about their girlfriends: Dani, El and Pez. I liked them a lot but the one that I truly fell in love with (I do fall in love with people and things a lot, just saying) was Perrie, Zayn's girlfriend. I found that she was in a band called Little Mix (which is now my favorite band).

I spent days searching things and watching videos about them. I watched every single video I could find of their time on X Factor and the main video that inspired me was their winner's story. I thought 'If these 4 normal girls who are just as crazy and random as me followed their dreams and made it, why can't I do the same thing?' And so a new phase of my life started: I decided not to play safe, I'm going to try, I'm going to follow my dreams. 

The whole point of life is to be happy and do what you want to do, isn't it? So like me I want you to try... even if you're unsure, insecure, scared...

And if you don't make it the first time, prepare yourself better and try a second, third, fourth time... try as long as it's possible and as many times as you can!! 

If you want to know more about my side of the story stay tuned for a video on my main channel because I will post a video of me talking about the many things I consider important when taking this type of decisions. The topics will be a lot and really well explained.

Talk to you on the next post, bye!! <3